I’ve never read much, though many think I have and that’s not entirely wrong. An average literate person has read a lot. However, its not something I do to entertain myself, as many say they do and some actually do. Its something to do when you are mentally free and I am hardly ever mentally free. The mental freeness as it’s called isn’t something I have experienced in many many days or it seems. But, it may also be the case that I am experiencing it right now and I don’t know it. As it’s said, I’m not aware of it.
Its something to work with as I enter in this new year. Not like I don’t already have much to think about already, lol. This also reads like a 5 year old talking to himself beside his bed with his eyes closed praying. It’s always the foundational years which leave a mark on a personality, more so than adulthood. Though there are a few books I’ve read cover to cover but I don’t remember much from them. I’d definitely not be able to quote from them or take out a verse and explain its meaning. Unless I have to, that’s what’s always needed. In any scenario, anyone who can do what he has to do is doing good roughly speaking.
Half the time we just aren’t too aware of what is it that has to be done and that’s why people gather around talking about things. Its not necessarily a one thing it’s can be the smallest of things but it just doesn’t seem to get completed. There must be a reason behind it but tk get down to the reason each day to keep it on the surface of your mind is too much effort. It’s hard work and that’s basically why we aren’t always capable of doing what we think we will. That’s some deep shit right there!
As average as shit goes and as deep as one can comprehend.
I’m trying not to live day to day as it gets too depressing. Its like there’s no story of I do that, there no progression I can feel if I do do that. More importantly, its for robots. As a man, as a human being as a youthful moron, I think sleeping more than eating is a great way to shed excess weight. It would’ve been so amazing if there were groups and activities where I could get to befriend a few like minded individuals, talk aloud, laugh aloud, speak shit and stuff. That’s something cool even. It doesn’t exist or its not in my reach maybe or something. It’s fun the way it is, there isn’t a but of doubt about that. I have also lost incredible weight and legs feel stronger too. The crapiness is there but where is it not. Its what we think the last is what we wake up with, right?
thouwriter 